23 June, 2009
I am bored. Really. Bored of what? Life. FML man.
I dunno why i am bored too, maybe its becos the once-enjoyment activity of mugging have became a effing pain in my back. Ever since i stepped in the world of IP, studies to me became a boring chore. Damm.
Remember the days when i came home, and look forwarded to mugging. I ACTUALLY LOOKED FORWARDED TO MUGGING! That was when i was in vs la. When i first got exposed to geography and history. Gone were the days. Haizz.
As i look back, i look forward. As history teachers will say: History from a point of view is learning from past mistakes and improving our future decisions and chioces. And i sortta agree. Truth to be told.
Look back at last year. fucked up. This year, okayy la. I be happier for some reason i dunno why too, and have been more active i guess, not like the laid back slacker last year. zzz.
To myself, i failed in many ways. To others, maybe i failed too. But, what am i supposed to do about it now? Stand still and break out wailing like a baby who has lost his mum? No man. I am not a softie. Lols
Life, there are no many paths for me. All roads lead to rome, but there is only one path i could travel on. The mugger way. Lols. Bobian also muz continue trudging on la.
Now, the diversion of paths coming along. Which way will i walk? Wad goal am i working towards? 6 months down, and we come to an end. End of countless happy times in the IP programme, end of all de nonsense we could come out with in our very own classes.
Time for the boring lectures, and tutorials. Lol.
i thought over it for long, and i finally knew what i am giong to do in the future. I may be afraid of heights, but who needs to look down when driving a plane? I may be afraid to die, but why cry for me if i die for the country?
Spinning, turning, in a formation that impresses people all the time, in front of the 70000 singaporeans in red and white attire, plus the countless people watching it on live television, the pride and glory of fighter pilots.
Yea, i want to be a fighter pilot. Being able to withstand up to 9g force on my body, to handle all the pressure within, this is what i choose, and this is what i will die for.
HOWEVER, i remembered a prime minister once said, when he was a child, and his teacher asked him why he want to be a prime minister, this was his reply: Only doctors and prime ministers are in the position to serve the society in a great way.
And my parents also inspired me, about the beauty of it. Kudos to people who want to be a doctor too, for example Bryan, Jaime, Lihui, Vivian etc. Apparently according to grace from ip1, my dance junior, mr teo told her 90% of the cohort wants to be doctors when they grow up. I hope this percentage change when we reach careers fair, It can be very scary to think about your chances when the competition is so intense you know. lol
Plan for 2010:
PCMH KI/GP
H3 HISTORY. Lol
A lvl aim: AAAAA. Lol. Aim for the stars, and work your butt off towards it. So as least if you fall among the clouds, you know you have done your damm best and there is nothing more you could do about it. Lol
Cca side:
Dance
Med soc
House comm
SYFC
Others: Piano grade 8. Lols. If not die.
Love life: Private and confidential as of 2010-2011. :D
6 months to go. All the way.
Personal vow: I, TanSongKai, swear upon my own body spirit mind and soul to give my bestest when i enter JC. no more fucking up in life. Otherwise, you can just fuck urself and go and die. Haha
330 days.
11/12 pi rad.
Lol.
3.1415926535897932384626433832...crap, my memory is failing me. there used to be 45 decimals i remember. Haizz
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